(he is right side up looking straight at you, belly is bottom circle head is top smaller circle)
I distinctly remember sitting in the playroom with boxes around us when Garyn first mentioned that he wanted a baby brother. (probably late August) I also remember saying I wasn't sure if he would have one since mommy had a hard time with Ansley. And he was adamant that he wanted a baby brother since he already had a baby sister. Then a couple weeks later, we were in the car and he said "Momma, I'm still thinking about my baby brother." I chuckled and told him I really didn't know if it was possible for momma to have another one and even if so, we wouldn't be able to choose if it was a boy or girl. I also told him he would have to talk to God about that since He made that decision. He wanted to pray about it right then and there! So we did! A third time (maybe late Sept.), also in the car, he said he was thinking about his baby brother again. I asked what about and he said, "I was thinking his name should be Baby Tim." I mean who is this kid and where is he coming up with this! (BTW he did a very similar prediction with Ansley, he just didn't name her) The only Tim we know is my uncle whom we see about every other month for maybe and hour or two. I can't think of any other person or character with that name.
All the while, we laughed about these conversations. Tyler's parents started asking us if there was a baby Tim coming they needed to know about. Which brings me to talk about what Tyler and I were deciding pertaining to baby #3........
As you know, or even if you don't, we struggled to get pregnant with Ansley. (read here) Once we were pregnant, we thought we would never prevent pregnancy again! It was such a struggle and hard time for us that it seemed crazy to not allow it to happen as natural as possible. Once Ansley came, though, we went back and forth on that decision. I knew I wanted another, at some time, Tyler started feeling happy with just two. So sometimes we did and sometimes we didn't prevent. It was just one of those subjects we didn't really discuss much, not that we argued about it but just that we knew we didn't want to go through fertility treatments again but also didn't know if we wanted Ansley to be an infant either when having a third. I, honestly, didn't know if it could happen. I didn't want to think about it much because I didn't want to get back in that hole of stressing over it. I trust God and just wanted to leave it up to Him.
I still give God the glory for Ansley and now for this one as well! I was not having regular menstrual cycles and was on no medication to regulate them. ( With both the others, I was at least on the basic med that kept me in a cycle) I thought I would not be able to get pregnant until I started back on that basic med used to control Polycystic Ovary Syndrome, which I have. However, as I said, I really wasn't concentrating on it. About the time Ansley turned one, we became less and less worried about preventing and felt it would be ok if another came along.
To get on with this story...I know you are ready for me to! In the midst of Garyn talking about Baby Tim and us laughing about how crazy it would be if he was right; I became pregnant in the month of October. After Thanksgiving weekend and being really late, I took a test. I WASN'T expecting to see a positive. I just thought I was becoming more irregular and would need to start my meds soon. I was in shock and that lasted about a month actually! I just couldn't believe I was pregnant and we weren't really trying! Yes, I know, we weren't preventing so we technically were trying. BUT there were no meds, no charts, no timing to it! I conceived completely natural! I know this excitement seems wild to some, but it really was a great testament to how God blesses us when we trust in Him and His timing.
(I tried several times to flip this, but the small little circle in the middle of the pic is his boy part!)
I still am shocked that we are actually having a third when we are in the midst of moving, if we are completely moved even. It is also right before school starts for Tyler and Garyn! Yes, I will be dealing with a newborn and a new kindergartner plus add a two year old to that mix! AND it will be football season for Tyler! AHHH! Saying all of that makes me feel overwhelmed. But I know God has this planned and its the best when its in His timing!
(not the best pic, but most recent)
I am 21 weeks now and have been feeling great. I am hungry more and am recently feeling tired more, but over all, it has been a breeze, so far! He will be here before we know it. I am trying to soak up this time with my two babies especially since this is Garyn's last year at home. Therefore, I really haven't been planning much for Layne's arrival. Being that we will hopefully be in a new house before then, I really can't do anything anyway. Like I said, Garyn is completely content with a baby brother. Ansley, on the other hand, has no clue! She will be hands on yet jealous, I feel. She loves babies but also likes for me to be completely available to hold and tend to her beck and call. It will be an adjustment for her, I know. Knowing God was in control of this timing, I feel less stressed. It will be great fun for us all!